I'm done with my summer break. It's back to normal life --which is sad, bored and dramatic.
The night we came home, while eating our dinner, our dad scolded us for opening the computer. Actually it wasn't US who opened it. It was my older sister, MICA. Well, you know what they say ONE FOR ALL AND ALL FOR ONE. (I hate that line when it comes to circumstances like this.)
My dad told us:
"Binuksan na naman yung computer?! Kakadating niyo pa nga lang ah! Ang taas ng tubig, ang taas ng kuryente. Pano pagnamatay ako?!..Sana may trabaho ng kayong lahat."
And then he says that repeatedly. It's really ANNOYING. :| It's like, "Okay, dad. We get the message!"
All of us were quiet. All of us were just eating..except my dad. He was blabbering. Kidding! I know he says that because he's already tired. When my dad said, "Pano pagnamatay ako?!" it hit me real hard. I felt like crying. But I only did when it was bedtime. :)) I don't like people seeing me cry. :P I thought hard for what I'll be doing in the future. And, I've told myself that I NEED A JOB RIGHT NOW.
I don't know how we'll be living when my dad's gone. And again, he'll be leaving for London. :( If only I could tell him what I feel. :< If only I could change back time so I could be open with him, starting when I was still young so it wouldn't be hard for me. Lack of conversation, Lack of bonding. All work No play = Closed doors in a relationship. People are right, when you regret something, it'll always be at the end. You'll realize it when everything is going so wrong. Why is life like that? What is this game that we play everyday?
Now, I'm going through the part where DREAMS are SHATTERED by my parents. They didn't mean to do it, I know. But that's how I feel. They told me they'll buy me an electric guitar..where is it now? Since last April 10 up to now, it's now showing! I don't know how to tell my dad. I'm scared. Maybe he'll scream at me and say, "I'm tired!". But that guitar is one step to my dream. I need that.
Another one is the Summer Enhancement Program (SEP). I war really looking forward for this, but then again, my dad. I'm afraid he'll say I'm tired or whatever. I really want this SEP. I want to be advanced in algerbra. I want good grades in my 1st Year Report Card.
Oh God, please help me. Send me an Angel or something.
The night we came home, while eating our dinner, our dad scolded us for opening the computer. Actually it wasn't US who opened it. It was my older sister, MICA. Well, you know what they say ONE FOR ALL AND ALL FOR ONE. (I hate that line when it comes to circumstances like this.)
My dad told us:
"Binuksan na naman yung computer?! Kakadating niyo pa nga lang ah! Ang taas ng tubig, ang taas ng kuryente. Pano pagnamatay ako?!..Sana may trabaho ng kayong lahat."
And then he says that repeatedly. It's really ANNOYING. :| It's like, "Okay, dad. We get the message!"
All of us were quiet. All of us were just eating..except my dad. He was blabbering. Kidding! I know he says that because he's already tired. When my dad said, "Pano pagnamatay ako?!" it hit me real hard. I felt like crying. But I only did when it was bedtime. :)) I don't like people seeing me cry. :P I thought hard for what I'll be doing in the future. And, I've told myself that I NEED A JOB RIGHT NOW.
I don't know how we'll be living when my dad's gone. And again, he'll be leaving for London. :( If only I could tell him what I feel. :< If only I could change back time so I could be open with him, starting when I was still young so it wouldn't be hard for me. Lack of conversation, Lack of bonding. All work No play = Closed doors in a relationship. People are right, when you regret something, it'll always be at the end. You'll realize it when everything is going so wrong. Why is life like that? What is this game that we play everyday?
Now, I'm going through the part where DREAMS are SHATTERED by my parents. They didn't mean to do it, I know. But that's how I feel. They told me they'll buy me an electric guitar..where is it now? Since last April 10 up to now, it's now showing! I don't know how to tell my dad. I'm scared. Maybe he'll scream at me and say, "I'm tired!". But that guitar is one step to my dream. I need that.
Another one is the Summer Enhancement Program (SEP). I war really looking forward for this, but then again, my dad. I'm afraid he'll say I'm tired or whatever. I really want this SEP. I want to be advanced in algerbra. I want good grades in my 1st Year Report Card.
Oh God, please help me. Send me an Angel or something.