What are you, the runt of the family?
If my mom's genes have not been dominant enough, I could have been mistaken for being adopted.
I find it hard being home. I feel like it's somewhere I don't belong (Although, I know there is no home-y place I have found else where.) And I realized that everywhere I go, I find myself out of place. They don't want me. But the go near me because they need something (which I am not sure of-- whatever that is).
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BOAST TO BOOST. BOOST TO BOAST.
It is a chain reaction.
Please do know that I am referring to your self-esteem, and mine.
Stupidity.
Have you ever felt like you wanted to confess something but you can't because you know it's not worth everything both of what you've been through? You feel like he/she likes you back but you just can't take the risk. Here you are, actually waiting for her/him to tell you that he/she likes you. You wait a little more, but still nothing comes up. You wonder what's wrong, what's taking so long. You try to be patient. Yet, still nothing. You try to analyze. -Never satisfied- Is it because you're holding on while he/she's really not? He/She's looking at someone else. All the while, you thought it was you. You expect too much. You assume. Are you sure where you're getting at? You are confused. You don't know what to do. You are dragged by your heart. You are dragged by the horde. You suddenly think that you've changed, that you do not recognize who you've become anymore. Who do you really want to be? A variety of questions spring up. You do not know how to answer them one at a time. But one thought was still alive. You still like her. That's all you cared about. You just went back to square one.
What if you just told her? No. Everything will change.
Have you ever felt like you wanted to confess something but you can't because you know it's not worth everything both of what you've been through? You feel like he/she likes you back but you just can't take the risk. Here you are, actually waiting for her/him to tell you that he/she likes you. You wait a little more, but still nothing comes up. You wonder what's wrong, what's taking so long. You try to be patient. Yet, still nothing. You try to analyze. -Never satisfied- Is it because you're holding on while he/she's really not? He/She's looking at someone else. All the while, you thought it was you. You expect too much. You assume. Are you sure where you're getting at? You are confused. You don't know what to do. You are dragged by your heart. You are dragged by the horde. You suddenly think that you've changed, that you do not recognize who you've become anymore. Who do you really want to be? A variety of questions spring up. You do not know how to answer them one at a time. But one thought was still alive. You still like her. That's all you cared about. You just went back to square one.
What if you just told her? No. Everything will change.
I am suddenly brought to the thought of having Leukemia. I have been observing my color, mostly on the lips, and it's often pale.
It has been a while since I last posted something worth-reading. All I can say is.. there has been no progress. Horay! -stoned to death-
I'm kind of disappointed with school.. ? Ha ha. Let's just say the class picked me as St. James. Nice, eh? The only exciting part there is.. I get to have a personal assistant! Ha ha. Sweet.
-Guess who she is.-
I'm kind of disappointed with school.. ? Ha ha. Let's just say the class picked me as St. James. Nice, eh? The only exciting part there is.. I get to have a personal assistant! Ha ha. Sweet.
-Guess who she is.-